August 2015 - Enigma

Wednesday, 12 August 2015

Fear.
Imagine yourself hiding behind a curtain, waiting until this stage you are stood on lights up, and the curtain parts for everyone to cast their eyes upon you. You've pushed and pushed this moment for as long as you possibly can, but time has now caught up with you. The tick tock, tick tock- every second passing whilst your nerves become miniature balls of ice, thrusting their way through your veins all around your body. Almost like an electric shock. The wait has rendered you jittery. It's time to stop running. This magnificent, gleaming polished stage just splaying out under your feet. Close your eyes and really picture it- standing, peering out, peeking between the gap of the curtains into the silent dark minefield. What is behind a mere piece of fabric that is making you cower? An arch enemy. Serial psychopath. Clowns. Darkness. Spiders. Love. Liars. Skeletons of a very old and dusty closet perhaps? Wasted time. Or the fear of time catching up with you...

Rooted deeply within us all, at the very core of our beings- there is this delicate ability to grasp, take charge and mould fear into something feasible. Most of us have been doing this throughout our lifetime unknowingly. This notion is truly delectable for those who are looking for something beyond the ordinary.

Fear has the dexterity to destroy hope, happiness, comfort and love. It will illegally occupy your mind, settle, and create a delightful chaos on its destructive path. It is important to be the horizon of your very own sunset.

Fear will collide with you over a million times. It will keep you chained to your past demons. Narrow your perspective. Fail you. Hinder your climb. It pushes you to live with your eyes closed. At the same time it can be a blessing in disguise which allows you to shatter the glass ceiling, in order to awaken. Awaken, breathe, and dance through the epiphany which makes you realise that being a drop in an ocean of greatness, is not so bad after all.

People who are able to let go of fear are those with a little rebel in them. They have mixed their gentleness with diluted madness.

Life would be mundane if we were all born incapable of feeling fear. Without fear, we would not be able to romanticise conclusions, excel in brilliance individually, relish over the climax to whatever situation right after fear presents itself naturally in its full glory. Being incapable of feeling fear, would diminish innocence. In a world with no fear, the whispers of the wind would be alien to us.

Fear can either haunt you to the point of self-destruction, where it can tend to exhaust your glimmer- or release you into the wild as a newly born beautiful soul. You will feel lost for a little while as fear vanquishes to return another time, yet what makes you that bit more beautiful is not knowing how to find yourself again. Allowing another to help you make sense of yourself. Empty, serene shores or hectic playgrounds, you decide which one you prefer.

The heart should not worry. Fear is but a feeling. They are only temporary, feelings, are they not? So laugh a little more, care a little less. Look deep into the darkness and do not be afraid if the stars brightness do not make sense to you. The best kind of fears begin with a misunderstood mess.

Let fear tarnish your mind. Let it smirk with its maturity at you, swallow you with aggression, crush your soul into pieces and leave you to become an innocent paradox. Let fear kiss you in a tongue you cannot comprehend.

Yes, it's getting late but do run away with me. Let us be caught up in each others misty webs. Let us explore each others minds and I promise, you will find yourself. Will you bring fear, or leave it behind this time around?

S.K.

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